Behind?

Oh dear, here it is half way through April and the last time I blogged it was March!! Where on EARTH did the time go? I really want to know, I would love to have some of it back!!

Life has been busy it's had it's ups and it's downs but you know it's my life and I am happy with it!

I got the biggest life lesson the past few weeks or so, my bestfriend from highschool mother passed away suddenly this year, and it really stopped me in my tracks. It slapped me and it stung. I never really took the time to see how short and special life is. It made me see how special my parents were. I sure do call my mom alot more! Don't let life pass you by with out telling your loved ones how special they are. Really you never know.

My heart goes out to her family, it's not something you just bounce back from. Still praying and loving them!

I can't think of alot to report on as busy as my life has been, but I would love to tell you all that I am here to pray for you. If you have any request feel free to let me know and I will be praying.

Thank you all for reading my blog..

Dreams

First Blog of March...

Most little girls dream of being a princess! Living a glitzy glittery life! Then the real world hits them and they start to dream about more realistic things. Mini vans husbands children and careers. I have to say I am no different, when I was little I dreamed of being famous person married to Prince Charming! As I got older those dreams turned into white picket fences lawns houses husbands and kids and the double garage doors! Here I am still dreaming of what's to come.

I am living a quiet single gal’s life right now, but today I realized that actually some of my dreams are right in front of me and I had no idea. There's no guy no garage doors no picket fences and no glamour... Or is there?

I work 6:30-3 Mon-Friday as a preschool teacher. Everyday I am around 15 small children. Some days are hard...So very very hard...

When I walk into the room after being gone for a short bit of time their eyes light up! They run to me! They call my name. They love me. To them I am the famous person that just walked in the room. I said I wanted the glitter of the world... All of my clothing sports glitter paint stains and my heart holds wonderful great memories of painting projects with the loves. I may not be married or dating right now, but I have a roof over my head. I have a car, I have a job. I have pets and I have a job where I get to snuggle with many little someone’s everyday.

As I said earlier today I've realized that my dreams are coming true each and every day!

With a happy Heart on this first day of March I wish you all a great month.. I hope that you too see your dreams are coming true around you!

A Big Chance!

Hi Friends!

I just recently auditioned for this amazing contest called iPOP and out of 200 or more so people that auditioned only about 30 or so people made it. I was one! It's very exciting to me! Now I get the chance to go down to LA and do one of my heart desires and ACT and have 100's of agents judge me and see me.. Maybe one of them would actually take me on! Wouldn't that be amazing! It's defiantly a once in a life time chance.

However it's spendy so I am trying to raise the money to go.

If any of you would be willing to donate towards it I would be for ever grateful, OR better yet for you if you need any type of service done I'd more then willing to work for it..

If any of you know me, like really know me you know how hard this is for me to ask. I MUCH RATHER give then ask..

This is a once in a life time thing and a dream I've had since toddlerhood...


Anything helps..

Even just encouraging words and support!

I love you!

you can contact me at

lilpiperjane@yahoo.com For further information!

Thank you!!

Taking Back Me

2011 is something special! Can you feel it or is it just me? Maybe 2011 is my year to shine, but I am really hoping it's everyones year to find greatness. I have entered this year with a smile and I smile everyday. I am learning to laugh at my mistakes and not let the little things get to me. I am just loving life.





Since I feel this year is going to be a big one for me I've decided to take back my body. As many of you know I have suffered a pretty nasty back injury in the past. For those of you who don't know. There was construction underway on the free way. Traffic was at a dead stop however the car behind me failed to see all the brake lights in front him and according to the officer on the sight he hit me going at least sixty while I was at a dead stop. Talk about a BIG OWIE! Yes I've let that big owie control my life tell me who I am going to be. I gained fifteen pounds after that accident and have gone up and down on weight since. I am no where near as active as I once was and the migraines that only bothered me once every few months started coming weekly. I've done chiro and massage treatments they help but you know it wasn't enough. When I started feeling weak and sore from holding a hair brush up above my head I knew I was in trouble. I am 26 years old this is not okay with me... So I contacted my Uncle who knows a lot about muscle building and getting a healthier life style. He is wonderful and has agreed to work with me, giving up an hour of his family time 3x a week for me. I really do love him!





He's been a lot of my strength during this process. Now he' s in I know he won't let me quit, but let me tell you something, I don't want to quit. I have suddenly fallen in love with going to the gym. I love the challenge. I love that my uncle is with me guiding me and helping me become who I want to be.





And yes we are only on week two but you know I was able to get my hair into a pony tail today with no pain?





It's little but it's big to me...





Here I am stepping in and taking back me!





And to all of you who support me in other ways. THANK YOU! I couldn't be finding me with out you.

PS... The picture above is me being active at Relay for life.. Well it was a hug moment.. But the last few years at Relay by the end my body is killing me. I've picked this picture to encourage me to keep in shape so maybe this year it won't hurt so bad at the end of the day... Plus the little one in the picture is always encouraging. :) Thanks to her family for being such a great part of my life and allowing me to be the "Big Sister" as her mother once put it... Love it!

Seriously loving Life!

The Ups and Downs

This weekend was wonderful! Though it didn't start out how I wanted it to. What's that saying you plan and God laughs? That's what happened. Here I had a fun weekend planned out. I was going to see some old friends who I miss like crazy then off to Seattle for some acting lessons. However things changed when I got the dreaded message Rachel had the flu and prefered I didn't come. Rachel and I used to live together and we had a great way of sharing germs. Whatever she got I got vise a versa, now I am not 100 percent sure that it would be the same now that we don't live together but we didn't want to chance it. It was hard. I was really looking forward to seeing her and I don't know when the next time I will. Though I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. I don't understand and I don't always like it, but I respect it. There was a reason I didn't go down there.

So INSTEAD I got to hang out with my wonderful group of friends up here. We watched the Sea hawks kick tooshie! It was great. We laughed we talked we ate. We laughed some more. Most RELAXING Saturday in a long time. Not to mention baby snuggles! Gotta love that!

Then today I woke up to Snow... I knew that I was supposed to go to Seattle. So I prayed. I prayed and I prayed. If anyone knows me really well they know I love LOVE driving in the snow. It's one thing that does not scare me. It challenges me. I know I am odd :) So I checked the weather reports felt at peace to go and I made the trek down to Seattle. Glad I did! Only one bad spot today. The rest was EASY going. It was great. I spent the entire drive worshiping and rocking out to WOW hits. I love God and Me time. I praised him for everything.

I went to the class and learned a lot! I met some great people. Practiced what I learned and you know what? MY COACH used me as an example several times during the class! HOW cool is that?!! Eeek.. And I didn't freak out in front of the camera.. She taught me how to not be scared. Cool right?

Then I made a mistake and accidentaly put my parking slip on the wrong side and got a parking ticket.. BUMMER at first I was mad... Then I thanked God... For humbling me and reminding me that if I don't pay attention to small details there are sometimes prices to pay. So I will happily pay for my mistake.. Well maybe not sooo happily but I get it :)

All in all.. The week and this weekend have been a big adventure. Lots of ups and downs and for the first time in my life... I feel that I handled the downs the best I ever have.. That's huge for me! HUGE!


OOOOH and BY THE WAY!! The first song that plays on here now... My favorite right now... I can listen to it over and over and over


CH: Daily Challenge: Give bottles of water to the homeless OR No rolling "California" stops at stop signs.

A Random Blog

This year I've decided I am going to blog more.. I am not setting deadlines or the amount that I have to blog.. I am just going to blog more. I am going to blog when I am happy, and when I am not...So at the end of this year I can see how much I've grown! So I can see the changes.. So I can remember the smaller moments because well the big ones stay with us but the small ones slip by and I don't want that.

This week has been wonderful! I can't say it enough wonderful! Maybe because life slowed down a little for a week. I rested.. I rested I rested! Did I mention RESTED! Oh it's just what I needed.

Work's been fun! Weeks like this I wonder why it's called work. It's busy, it's loud but it's fun. I have had the chance to snuggle with children. I have gotten to laugh with co workers. I've gotten to explore new art projects. I love my job! There are days and weeks where I want to throw up my hands quit and walk away. But it's weeks like this that remind me that the good out weighs the bad. Hopefully my next bad day this very thought comes to mind and I can shake off that bad day.

Tonight was the first girls night that I've gotten to attend in a few weeks. I didn't realize how much I missed it. How much I need my time with my friends. I can sit in the same room with them for two hours and not say anything and just listen to them talk and feel very blessed to have each one in my life. They bring color to my life... I also got to snuggle a sleeping baby tonight. Holding a sleeping infant in yours arms is a feeling that can't be described. It's pure joy and love. That little man is very special.. I just love him.

Now the week is ending and I am looking forward to my first acting with class with a coach and EVEN better then that a weekend with a different yet equally special group of friends.. Eeeeek I am so excited!

Well friends thanks for reading my blog and following my life...

If there is anything I can pray for you about drop me aline.

I am always here to chat too... Send me an email or give me a phone call.. I am always good at just listening...

I hope you are all finding joy this new year..

Love ya

Jaxie

Oh yeah!! Back to doing Carolyn Hennesy's DailyChallenges because I love them and find them helpful for staying positive..

CH: Daily Challenge: Read at least three of the Federalist Papers OR Research the origins of your own hometown or state

Finding myself this year

This year I am going to find reasons why I like myself.. The more I write positives things the more I become them... In 2010 I focused hard on writing more happy notes on FB then negative ones.. Do you know that a few people have told me I cheer up their day? That I am the most positive person they know?? Little old me no way??? I don't always feel that way inside that's why I write it down.. I try and I try and I try.. Some times I do great others I fail, but I pick myself up dust myself off and start all over again.. It helps when you have positive people in your life.. I can think of a few people who use the most encouraging words with me.. With out knowing it they build me up greater then they'll ever know. I appreciate them and love them.

SO tonight I was looking at a picture that I found... My first thought was gadsooks that was 9 pounds ago ewwah.... But really why do that? SO my body wasn't perfect... I am not perfect and no one is expecting me to be.. God's not.. Why should I? So then I found the positives in it.. It's fun it shows me being me... So in the end I found something good...

My goal to finding myself this year... I am taking you on the journey... Sit back relax it's going to be a roller coaster adventure.. :)