Middle of the Night Blogs

It's in the middle of the night, and I can't sleep. Normally this would be a problem. However I am at complete peace about this right now. I spent my time praying, reading and continuing to have Faith.

I know I keep saying this, but life can just stink! It hurts! It's not fair! It's horrible to see the people you love in pain. To hear their hearts break. To see them cry. To know that you can't fix it for them! That is ROUGH!

It hurts when you are going through your own battles and darkness. Where lies get into your head and your self worth falls to the ground. Where you've reached your breaking point but no one seems to be around to grab your hand and to hold onto you. It HURTS..

Life Hurts!

What I am learning is that, I can't solve the problems my loved ones are going through, and I can't run from what is hurting me. What I can do is pray. I can pray. I can pray! I can pray! I can have Faith. I can have Faith knowing the Lord My God is taking care of them and me.

Oh he is.. He honestly is.. Even when you don't see it at first. God is there.. He is holding you up. He is loving you! If you are open to loving him.. You have to open your heart. You have to let him. You have to give him the drivers seat. That's the hard part. No one likes to give up that control.

I am giving him the keys.. I am climbing in the back seat and I am going to rest, I am going to let him take control. I am going to let him guide me through life. I don't want the control anymore. It brings too much pain..

I am going to love myself better! I am going to love myself the way God loves me. I am going to love my friends the way God loves them. They are in my life because of him.

I can see God because of a friend. That is amazing! A year and half ago... I didn't know the Lord the way I had always pretended to... I finally let go and Let God and I have been blessed.. I have been so blessed...

I am hurting right now.. It's the honest truth.. I hurt and I am scared, but I am not alone. I have God in my corner and I have the best of friends and family a girl could ever ask for.

God... You are great!

Thank you for giving me the gifts, the lights.. You are just amazing!