And that's a Wrap....

2010 is leaving this week can you believe that? This is my only chance that I am going to have to actually sit down and write this week so that's what I am doing. Reflecting on the the year.. 2010 was pretty great..

It's funny how in a year there are up and downs moments. That saying life is a roller coaster sure proves to be true.. There were those low points during the year the ones where I was tested. At those moments life felt unbearable, it felt like I would never get past them. That's the joys of being a emotional person :) However right now as I reflect I can't even remember what those moments were.. I know they helped shape me and helped me grow in some way or another and I am thankful for them but I am glad I can't remember exactly what they were and they didn't really tie me down as much as I thought at the moment.

As I look back on the year I realized how blessed I am.

My high lights of the year...... Aren't you excited to know? The suspense is intense right? :)

So here we go....

Through out the year I strengthend my bond with my friends.. We've gone through some hardships with each other and we've laughed.. We've spent many quiet times together as well as some adventures. I am grateful that group of friends.. Every time we are together I am more and more thankful them.

I got the chance to do an amazing play this year. Not only did it have a good message it brought me more blessings then I can even count. I found a church that I love. Met a great group of people. Gives me something to laugh about. Those memories I'll always Cherish even falling off the stage.. :)

I also made a friend during the play that I can't picture not knowing now. It's bringing me closer to the Lord. I love having Sisters in Christ.

I got to go down to Nevada for a week this summer where I got to visit with grandparents great grandmothers aunts uncles and cousins. What a special time... It's there I fell in love with my new favorite Movie. Ramona and Beezus.. Yes I am a dork but I absolutely love the movie...

I also sat down this year and wrote a book! Now I am putting some final touches on it and then going to try and get it published... Pray for me :)

A few of my friends welcomed brand new babies into their lives and have let me be a part of their children's lives... Gabriel Madison and Lucas are such sweet special babies I can't wait to watch them grow..

Not to mention I still have the best job in the world I get to play with kids all day long. Loving life.

This year has been wonderful.. I will remember 2010 with a smile..

I can't wait to see what 2011 brings :)

Finding Comfort

I am curled up with my favorite blanket that Rachel made me and I have a movie with Marie Osmond's voice playing. For those of you who don't know I am a big Marie Osmond fan and when I was younger when ever I was upset I found comfort in her cds. I may be a dork but at least I own it and I am not afraid to admit it. I also now find blogging to be my online journal and it brings me comfort, so this is what this is finding my comfort.

With me I am ONE emotional person, I feel everything and I take everything to heart. My feelings get hurt in a blink of an eye, and I am tired of hearing grow tough skin because well after 26 years it hasn't happened. Yes I've made growth as a person, I firmly believe that but the tough skin isn't something I am ever going to have. I believe in my heart that I was blessed with a sensitive soul for a reason and I am going to start embracing it! SO WHAT! If I cry? Why is it such a big deal?

I don't really know where I am going with this blog expect for getting up pent up anger and emotions out. Here I have been thinking the last few weeks that I am doing great and growing and finding things out only to find out that I am really no where different then I was six months ago. I am just depressed... I am sick and tired of always feeling like the failure. Always feeling that I give with a hundred and ten percent and it means nothing. I just right now feel like I am failing again and I hate failure I am afraid of failure.. I know alot of it has to do with my emotions..

So I am soul searching.. Who do I want to be? What do I want to do when I grow up? Only I can make myself happy.... So what can I do to find happiness?


On the up side, I do see God's Handy work everyday! THANK YOU LORD for snail mail when your day has gone down the tube with a simple a I LOVE YOU at the end. Thank GOD for a child's innocents hug and tender words when you can't see the brightness in the world. Thank GOD for friends who put up with your emotional side and don't tell you to grow a tough skin. Thank GOD for friends who can make you laugh in a way no one else can. THANK GOD for friends from the past that re surface just when you need them. Thank God for the family you've been given. Thank GOD for the little things in life that make you smile.

I THANK GOD that even when I am having a sadder day that I am still loved and blessed.

Thinking out loud

The last 3 nights I have been up in the wee hours of the night, it's not something I enjoy and it is a bit lonely at times. I am a sleep person I need sleep to function. The first day it was doable the second day was alright the third day was just annoying until I stopped and took a deep breath and realized that its not about me. Not everything is about me, and if I am going to call myself a child of God then I need to listen to when he's speaking to me. It doesn't matter how many times he tried to teach me that lesson I always end up messing it up. Good thing he is patient and loving. So I've realized I have been busy during the day and not making the time for him. So he's going to get me when he can. I've found myself praying for people, people I hardly know some for people that get under my skin and for some of the people that mean the world to me.

It's a good reminder that no matter what's going on in my life, I am God's child and I am not alone and he will use me when and how he can. I have FAITH in him and I love him...

So if you have any prayers drop me a line I'll be sure to pray.

Love

Jaxie :)

Thanksgiving

Today is Thanksgiving and it is by far my favorite holiday, not just because I get to eat though that is a high light! It's a day where I can really feel how blessed I am. Yeah I am sappy and emotional so of course this day ranks up there for me!

I have so many things to be thankful for, so many things that I take for granted everyday. First I have a warm place to live. The past few days have been very cold and it's reminded me how grateful I am that I have a house and heater and a bed and blankets. Things that some some people just don't have.

Here's one thing I am thankful for that some people think is silly but its big to me. I am thankful for my pets. I have three amazing animals who NEVER judge me they never put me down they never make me feel bad about myself they never hurt my feelings they are loyal and they love me flaws and all even when I let them down they never let me down. Animals are pretty amazing if I could I would have more. Yep crazy animal lover here :) My heart goes out to them!

I am thankful for a job, I've watched my parents struggle this past year with having jobs and then not having jobs its scary, I am just so thankful I have a job that I love that I get to go to everyday... Even when its hard to get out of bed or even when I have a bad day at work I still have it, its still mine and I still love it hard days and all... The small hugs I get make up for the hard days... I love being Miss. Backie as one little guy says :)

Now on to my family, it's a crazy group and we are all flawed but then again who has a family that isn't? Mine is not perfect far from it honestly but it's mine! :)

Then, I have the family that I've picked my friends. I am so blessed to have such an amazing group of friends. Some I've known for years and years and some I've only known since May of this year but each one very special to me. Sure we've hurt each other and have had our fights but we aren't perfect what we have is a common ground love for each other and I am learning to really trust from them. They make me who I am they are helping me grow and change and become the person I want to be.

They say you are blessed if you can count up three close friends, but I have more then three far more then three. Its a miracle and wonderful and a big gift wow!

I am also blessed to be able to freely believe in my God and talk about him and witness his miracles and not have to worry about losing my life for it. That to me is amazing!

I am so thankful for my flaws and my strengths they make me who I am. And I am at the point I am no longer ashamed of all my flaws I am not proud of them but I am learning to live with them and grow from them..

I am just Thankful to be alive and have a great life.

This is Jaxie signing out wishing you a very happy holiday season :)

Alright Meggers I updated just for you!

Bithday?

I just had another great Birthday, it's true what they the older you get the faster it goes by. I am still in shock I just had another one. It really only feels like a few months ago from my last one. Crazy.

So I am another year older and I hope that means another year wiser? I want to believe that I've grown and matured and become a better person in the last 365 days.

I try my harderst to be the best that I can be and love myself for who I am. Though that's NOT always easy. In the past year I've learned that the more positive you think the more positve you are. I try to start my day on a positive thought every day and ya know something? I have more good days then bad days.

Fun fact did you know that Oct 5th is the most popular day for babies being born? If you count backwards that leads you up to New Years eve.. Hmm Fun night?

It was a quiet Birthday but filled with so much love. I am so thankful for all of my friends and family God has put into my life. I am blessed. I can't imagine not having any of them. I LOVE YOU ALL! You know who you are!

As I write to you I am watching my rabbit run around the house and my little bitty kitty play with her it brings me such joy. I hope that next year at this time I remember all the joy I have and I hope I can still find it so easily.

who knew a bunny and a cat could bring joy but its there.

Well I am off I have another play tonight. HOPEFULLY I dont fall off any stages this time.

Yikes..

Daily Challenge

CH: Daily Challenge: Fill the pkng. meter 4 the person in after U OR Pay for an elderly person's groc. bill. (unless they're big on booze...:)

The picture above is NOT from my Birthday it just reminds me how blessed I am. I LOVE YA LEANNE!

Blogging

Yikes I haven't blogged in forever!

I said I wasn't going to do that but I guess I was wrong life got in the way. Crazy old life. Crazy is the word on my tongue the last few weeks have been crazy and intense filled but God's been there for me. I've seen him working in small but wonderful ways.

I see him in the eyes of children. I got to babysit two of my favorite kids last weekend and it was a relaxing night. The hugs snuggles the kind words the giggles all of that is God. He made these wonderful children and put them in my life. They made me laugh and learn from them. See God.. The conversations you can have with a seven year old are amazing. Love it!

I am doing a play right now and a few of the castmates have taught me alot. Young girls in their teens have opened up my eyes and made me feel included.

A wonderful pen pal who always knows just when to send me a note of up lifting words.

A great group of friends that I can go a few weeks with out seeing and then when we get back together its as if time hadn't gone on. Fits like a glove!

I have a job a home people who love me. People I love

3 wonderful pets..

SO BLESSED

Finding the Broken

Sometimes you can see into a persons soul and see that they are broken and hurting and sometimes you can't sometimes they wear such a sheild that you can't see into them.

However if you see a broken soul you need to love them pray for them offer words of kindness don't snap at them or be snippy with them love them. You have no idea how much a smile could mean to them a hug, or a simple you're a great person can do for them.

I see alot of hurt right now and breaks my heart. Please Love someone!

I love you all!


CH: Daily Challenge: No meat today...purely veggie meals (dairy is ok) OR... NO SUGAR (if you've already had...stop!)

Happier

I have been thinking, alot lately really and one think I know for sure I loved doing the blog daily and I have slipped so I am going to work on doing it more often I am not going to set it in stone that I have to do it everyday because that becomes a chore but I am going to fill this out more. I feel it makes me happier.

Growing Growing Growing that's what I strive to do. I want to grow into a great person who ever said you become an adult at 18 was an idiot here I am 25 and I still don't feel like an adult. I still mess up so much I still have alot of changes to make. I am at a cross roads in my life, where do I go from here? What will make me happy? I have no idea just prayer and time will tell.

Right now I am just focusing on getting by. I am trying not to be nasty or dwell on the past just move on to the future.

Thanks for growing with me friends


CH: Daily Challenge: Send xtra sch. supp. w/ your child for the teacher to discreetly give to a child in need OR Pick-up all trash in your path!

Vacation

PRAYER REQUEST PLEASE PRAYER! This an email from Betsy to me about a family we are both friends with its a sad story and they are in desperate need of prayer. .

Hi, Matt just got back from taking Matt Bezanson to the airport. As you may or may not know the Bezanson's have been on the road for the last couple of weeks pulling their trailer for a family vacation. Matt just flew back home a day or so ago to go back to work. Kara today was driving in L.A. and from what we understand the trailer began to fishtail and their suburban along with their trailer rolled on the freeway (the vehicles are totaled). Kara, Nate, Grace and Anna (teenager that they are god parents to) are all in the hospital in L.A. It is unclear the extent of the injuries. We know that they are all in neck braces, Nate has a pretty good gash on his face and Anna has a concussion bad enough that she can't see straight. It sounds as if they may have lost their new dog Chase. From what family in the L.A. area has been able to find in the police reports is that near the time of the rollover a dog was also hit on the freeway. At this time Kara does not know this information. I think they are waiting to confirm that the dog that was hit was truly Chase. That is all Matt knows. The hospital was not releasing much information to him. Matt should be in L.A. about 7:30 this evening. -Betsy
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR PRAYING for them



VACATION

When I was a little girl the most important people in my life were my family and no that hasn't really changed. But I've gotten older and I've moved away from the family that meant the world to me. So many wonderful memories that come from my family. BIG family dinners the adults sitting around the table playing scrabble the kids running around playing outside. The sage brush fire YIKES that was set by a cousin in the woods. Opps.. Trips to the Nugget for a family lunch then the adults playing and the kids going to the kid room and playing. Spending the night in the HIGH bed at Grandmas house coffee and morning baths malts and lotion.. Always having someone around to play with and talk to.

Well I am BLESSED enough to be able to go home to my childhood town. I am surprising my great grandmother she doesn't know I am coming! :) I am going to visit with my grandparents talk with my cousins see my first childhood best friend. This time though I will be the adult sitting around playing scrabble while the little ones run around playing. I hope to see a lizard a jack rabbit a wild horse and a mining town to bring my childhood memories back to me. Those are some of the best and worst memories I carry but the brighter ones shine more. The people make them shine.

I thank you GOD for my family. The ones near and far. The ones blood and non and of course the ones that I have picked to be in my family. You are all so special to me.

My blog may be quiet for a few days due to lack of Internet...


CH: Daily Challenge: Help any elderly person you see if they're having trouble OR Take already-read magazines to a dialysis center.

BUSY!

I got so busy and didn't get around to my blog.. Its so neglected! :)

I had an interesting weekend.. It was an adventure. I went on a late night swim in the bay with a great friend the moon was shining on the water and a band was playing at a local bar down the street. It was a scene out of a southern movie. It was adventurous and calming. I loved every second of it!

However the next my friends and I had a day where nothing was going right and we were bickering and fighting at every turn.. But you know you have a good friend when at the end of the day with a little space you still really love each other. I am just blessed so very blessed for my friends. I can't say it enough!

This weekend was a learning weekend. NOTHING went as we had planned. NOTHING.. But they say when you make a plan GOD laughs and that's true.. Take everything with a grain of salt plan a little bit but be flexible if it doesn't go as planned. Life is short way too short to be fighting and upset over things that can't be controlled.

LOVE YA :)

CH: Daily Challenge: Start the biography of a person fascinating to you OR Take at least 3 pieces of rarely-worn clothing to a local shelter!

Feelings

Do you know what's been weighing heaviest on my heart the last few days? Feelings. Everyone has feelings! Every single one of us. People should be treated with kindness compassion and respect. Even people we don't like. For they are people and they have feelings and emotions too. You might not like them but the feeling may not be mutual they might like you they might look up to you. You don't know what everyone is going through or where they are coming from. Everyone needs forgiveness too.. I am GUILTY of not treating people with the respect they deserve I am so guilty of it. That's why it weighs so heavily on me right now. I am quick to snap and quick to judge. I don't want to be that person anymore. I hate when my feelings are hurt or when someone talks down to me. SO WHAT gives me the right to turn around and do it to the next person? It's a disgusting habit and I want to end it now! It's time to let go and Let God...

Remember Everyone needs compassion, everyone needs love, everyone needs a little respect..

For those of you I've treated disrespectful I am apologizing from the bottom of my heart now. I am not perfect I am going to mess up again but I want to be a better person. So I am going to give it my all to be that person.


CH: Daily Challenge: Avoid salt for the entire day OR Read the newspaper (a big one...no, not the Enquirer!) from cover to cover.

Hug

What is sitting heavily on my heart is the kind act of a hug. Not all people are huggy type people, and I know am not usually one. But sometimes there is nothing better then a simple kind act of a hug and letting someone know that you care for them. Give someone in need a hug or tell someone you love them. They are soothing acts of kindness and love you'll never know what it means to that person.



CH: Daily Challenge: Google an impressionist artist and read all about them OR Be kind and nice to someone you don't like...all day long

Discouraged

I don't want to dwell on negative stuff I feel that it makes the world around you negative so I am honestly saying I am discouraged today tomorrow will be better, that's my blog for the night.

As my mom used to say... "If you can't say anything nice then don't say anything at all"

Praying for encouragement for tomorrow :)

CH: Daily Challenge: Use the GOOD silver and/or china OR Go for a walk, jog or run.

Friends

It takes two to keep a friendship growing, if you have a good friend don't let them slip away. Don't let life become between the two of you. Make sure you take the time to say hi, send an email, make a phone call, send a funny text. Go for a walk. Stay connected. It's so important. We are blessed to have friends keep them close.

CH: Boycott Circus's that abuse their animals in training. They won't stop until it effects their pocket books (Non official Daily Challenge she didn't do one today. However she did find out a baby elephant that was being abused in its training. Which led to this talk)

Silence

I don't have anything to say today. I have racked my brain I have prayed about it and I've got nothing... So sometimes not saying anything is okay. Enjoy the silence

Love to you all!


CH: It's the weekend so we're gonna have some fun with the...Daily Challenge: Play Monopoly OR Eat a fruit you've never tried!

Snail Mail

Who Loves mail? I mean real mail? Hand written thoughtful loving kind just for you? I know I do!! But you know something you are more likely to get mail when you send it yourself. I love writing letters and cards and sending them out. I love the joy that it brings to someone I love. Near or Far where ever it's a great thing emails are quick and nice but there is nothing like old fashion Snail mail.... And look below looks like Carolyn and I were on the same wave... She rocks!

Check her out on Twitter sometime... http://twitter.com/carolynhennesy

CH: Daily Challenge: Floss (that's right, floss...you know you don't!) OR Hand write a letter to a friend.

Don't Hide

We all are special. We are all built differently. Some of us are emotional some of us aren't. That's the facts of life. Some of us see a situation as being life ending and some of us don't. But don't down play your feelings. Your feelings are yours you are right to them. You are allowed to feel pain sadness anger for whatever reason. Don't toss them aside because the person next to you may not react the same way. Explore them. Challenge them. Get help for them. Talk to a friend family member anyone. Value your feelings treat them with respect because your feelings and emotions make you who you are. :)

Daily Challenge: Contact your state rep. on an issue that concerns you OR go without sugar the entire day!

Making up a missed Blog

My goal was to do this everyday for a month and I fell behind so I am doing an extra blog today to catch up. Just what is on my heart and of course I added words of wisdom from Carolyn on here too because I just love that woman she encourages me so..

Love your friends with all your heart. Your friends are some of the most important people in your life. You will get angry you will get annoyed and offended and hurt by them But LOVE them anyway after all you've done the same to them. They are a gift given to you. Be there for them when they hurt. Wipe their tears when they cry. Laugh when they laugh encourage when need and know that in your time of need they will be there. Love them for who they are accept their flaws as they accept yours.

I am so blessed to have so many special friends!

CH : Be fantastic in all your dealings today!

Taking it all on or not

Something I struggle with is taking everything on. I want to be apart of everything I want to do it all. I hate sitting back and letting others do. I am not sure why. I don't feel like I do it better I just like knowing seeing and doing. But it's not the most important thing in life. I don't have to do everything. I don't have to be every ones do it girl. So I am trying to take a step back and let others do more so I am not as bossy. That's another goal. SO what I am trying to say is step back sit back and watch a little. Don't do everything! But do the best when you do, do something. Give what you do your all.


CH : Daily Challenge: Try...TRY...to see the merits of some aspects of the opposing pol. party...just for better understanding OR Watch a classic movie made between 1940 and 1950. I just watched "Treas. of Sierra Madre". Bogart should have gotten the Oscar!!!

Be Flexable

You know I am learning everyday that being flexable has got to be one of the most important asspects to have in life. You never know what the day is going to hold and what is going to happen but if you are flexable and take it as it comes with a smile and a laugh it makes the day so much easier.


CH: Daily Challenge: Extra money in the meter for the car coming in after you OR Read the news magazine of your choice cover to cover!

Simple

Today is ending and I am getting my blog in minutes before the day. My thoughts today are simple.

Give thanks that you are American and you are free. If you see a vet say Thank you.

Happy 4th of July

Admit it..

ADMIT FAILURE or a mess up. I will be admitting one right now. I didn't blog when I was supposed to I failed myself. So here I am admitting a slight mess up on my part. Something you should know about me. I have a hard time admitting I was wrong. Those of you know me really well know this very true. Even this little admit is hard for me to do. But I am a growing person and I will continue to grow and this helps me..

Soo my advice tip words of wisdom... Own it.. Now to practice what I preach on a daily basis.. I should log off now I have alot of admitting to God to do now we'll be busy all night..

:)

CH: Daily Challenege...there will be three for the foreseeable future: Over-tip your coffee barista OR take a basket of hygiene prods. to a... local shelter (use 99 cent store)........OR tell one person (or many) about the scam that is Direct Buy. And YET....be gracious and grand. Sometimes I think the most gracious thing you can do is save others from falling into a hole! :)

This blog challenge is going to be harder then I thought, but I am glad to be doing it. I don't know if any of you are reading these I hope you are. Feel free to leave me comments I like to read what people think.

Today think about a loved one friend family someone you haven't talked to in awhile and send them a quick email FB message Twitter snail mail what ever it is that you do and just simply say hello and let them know they are appreciated and or loved. You have NO idea how wonderful it is to see a surprise message boosts attitude all day long :)

CH : Righty-O, muffins! Daily Challenge: reflect upon a cause or charity you'd like to get involved with (just THINK about it today) OR...
Be gracious and grand today...even to those who have "done ya wrong"!

pick up three (or more) recyclables and...recycle them!

Advice tip hmm?

Alright lets say I have a big mouth its not shocker so my advice and lesson is becareful what you say. Even in teasing you could hurt someones feelings. If later you think about it and feel guilty maybe it wasn't that funny to begin with. Take that into consideration friends and if you have that feeling own it. Apologize it never hurts to admit where you may have been wrong. It helps you grow as a person and it reminds you to think a little bit before you speak. However by all means I am not saying be serious all the time because really that's not cool. Just watch what comes out of your mouth. Playful teasing should be said in fun taken in fun and innocent people around you should know it's fun. Be kind be loving be a shining star when you are out in the world.

LIVE! Laugh! (ALOT) LOOVE with your whole heart..

Thanks GUYS

Love you all!



CH: Daily Challenge: watch a movie made before 1940 (w/ family preferably) OR Take a basket of fruit to the nurses at a conv./rest home!

A Month of Challenges :)

Ever since I was very young I knew I wanted to be a writer. I was the little girl in fourth grade when the teacher asked for a short story would write a thirty page "Short" Story. I love everything about it. However I haven't figured out where I want to write what field I want to write. Fiction seems to be my passion! I love creating new people new worlds its so magical to me. I need encouragement to stay on track some days and that got me thinking.. Everyone needs encouragement everyone needs a boost and a challenge. So starting today everyday for a month I am going to blog. That's right I am going to blog! I am going to work on my writing skills and throw out some encouragement.

I am going to come up with my own words of wisdom or challenges and I am also going to post Carolyn Hennesy's daily challenge on here. For those of you who may not know who Carolyn Hennesy is I'll give you a quick update. She is someone who I look up to and admire. She is the author of the Pandora books for Tween girls amazing books I love them all! She also has a great role on General Hospital as Diane Miller and is on Cougar town!

So buckle up sit back enjoy the month :)

CH: Daily Challenge: no make-up today (give your face a break) OR eat a salad for lunch or dinner with no dressing (just a little seasoning) :)

JB: Everyone is special everyone has something about themselves that is unique and wonderful. Today take a minute for yourself and find something that you like about yourself something that might make you special then look in a mirror and tell yourself out loud what you thought about. It may seem silly but it's not it's encouraging and wonderful and you are wonderful.

Random Thought

Random Thoughts and Sixty Days

The weekend is coming to an end, and as I get ready for bed and for the week ahead I check my vitamins and other pills for the week to find that I am low on most. This week will be the week I have to shell out the big bucks and buy all new bottles. Well it got my mind thinking. My mind is random so bare with me. It got my mind thinking to what have I been doing the last sixty days? Or close to sixty days since there is still three or four left in the bottle. Sixty days ago I got a brand new bottle of vitamins, and I take one every day and now here I am.... What has changed what has happened to me. Have I grown? I sure hope spiritually! Have I grown more mature I hope a little bit, but not so much I've lost my sense of humor :) Have I grown wider? GASP I hope not! Luckily all my clothes still fit so we are safe on that one.

It just took me by surprise that sixty days of my life are gone. I get into routine of life and now that I've compared it to a bottle of fish oil it's shocking!!!! just shocking!!! and makes time seem so much faster.

Sixty days ago I was just starting play practice. I had just met several new people whom I've come to adore. And one of them whom God has placed on my heart to be a prayer warrior for. Sixty days ago I had just met this person for the first time and here I am praying for her every night and every morning.. Hello God's magical touch? I think so! I did a play I went to a wedding I made quite a few mistakes I cried a few times I grew a bunch. I hugged lots of kids played lots of games read tones of stories... Sixty days of a whirl wind of fast paced time. I preformed the play I fell from a stage sprained my ankle found a church family I adore. Learned a lot about people. Did some babysitting had some fun with my friends went on a hiking adventure..... Goodness my last sixty days have flown and I sit here and I look at it. I see God's thumb print...

How about you? How have the last sixty days been for you? Meet anyone new? Fall in love? Fall out of love? Learned something about yourself or a friend or a loved one? Sit down think about it. See where you've been putting your time. Anything you want to change? It's a fresh new sixty days take the time and change it. You have the power with in you. Pray about it.. Ask God for it.. Love yourself enough to see where you have been and where you are going. I know I sure saw a lot.

Love ya all

Jacqueline Jean

This picture makes me smile, its a picture of me and my sweet baby niece isn't she adorable? She's talking more she's dancing and singing and hopping around I just want to eat her up. Look at how innocent she is! Sometimes I wish we all still had that childlike innocents. Where you love everyone trust everyone and your biggest worry is weather or not your sibling took your favorite toy or what color Crayon to use.

As I've gotten older I've learned it's harder and harder to trust people around you. Some people really don't consider others they just care about their needs and what makes them finish at top.

I am not perfect of course I have my own needs that I meet and try to take care of. I am human but I just don't understand hurting others to gain what you want. To tell someone one thing and do the complete opposite thing it's crazy and saddening to me. Though I am BLESSED very Blessed I have a tight core group of people in my life who do honestly love me and try to build me up when I am down and float along with me when I am floating and encourage me to be the best that I can be. So thankful that I can honestly say I have a group of people I can count on anytime day or night to be there. Statics say some people can't even name three honest friends and I have MORE then that. So I am trying to not let the outter world bug me. The one that attacks and destroys other people and their spirts . I want to love everyone. That is my goal to love everyone! So I beg you if you hear me say something that contradicts that call me out on it please. I don't want to be known as a destroyer but a lover. Everyone is in my life for a reason I believe that and I am going to learn from everyone and be the best person I can be. I am not going to let outside media or people destroy that.

TO my core group of people! Thank you! I don't know what I would do with out you! Love ya!

Go hug a child get some of their sweet innocents to rub off on you. Love a child love yourself Love the LORD

Amen!

The last few days one of my grown up worries has been for a friend on adventure she is about to take. The Lord has placed it on my heart to pray and so I've been praying and trusting in the Lord that he will take care of her. I have no idea why this has been placed on my heart but it has and strongly. So If you think about it will you too just say a prayer for her. That God is with her every step and keeps her safe and lets her know she is loved and truly special.

THANK YOU!

Love Jacqueline Jean

Listening

Listening...

Ack Listening is sometimes so hard to do. Listening to someone point out your flaws weather it's in love or spite is a hard thing to do. Listening to others sometimes over your own needs is sometimes hard to do. But you know what's easy to listen to? Gossip! Why is it so easy to listen to gossip and to speak Gossip?

My goal for the rest of this year is to listen to what matters. Listen to my friends and family when they are talking and I mean really listen not just hearing but listening finding out where there heart is in saying it.

I know in the last few days I've heard some hard things to take. Things spoken out of love. Things that have challenged me and I mean really challenged me to try harder and do better. It's like I finally heard.

Then I started really listening to what others were saying and I found that hearing Gossip was soo easy to listen too. So easy to jump in on. That's the one thing that I want to STOP listening too and stop speaking. When someone is listening to me I don't want it to be anything but uplifting and fruitful. Which is where I am going to need to pray a lot because we all know that's not going to be an easy thing to do.

I know that I also have to start listening to the bigger voice the one in charge. I know that God lays things on my heart and speaks to me and I don't always listen and I think I've missed out on some pretty big things. Now that I am listening more I am finding myself to be excited about things that have been laid on my heart and will come. It's kind of fun just to listen.

Listen and Love as your week goes on :)

Encouraging Words

Being The Shine

I am feeling very inspired all of a sudden two posts in one week wowzers.

My last blog I talked about finding the little things to make you happy I called it finding the shine. Finding the shine made me think of being the shine. You know everyday we are around people a lot of our time is spent with our co workers sometimes we see them more then our family! Crazy to think! We get set in these ruts and don't often think about finding the shine we just go on and on and on. But the other day in my rut of ruts I had someone tell me something simple something encouraging and it made me stop and think. Oh this person really does care about me and this person just made my day a whole lot better. How hard is it for us to say something encouraging to someone at least once day? It's amazing how simple kind words can change someones whole day as long as they are true and heart felt. It's really not hard to say "Hey I saw how you handled that situation and I think you did a great job. Or I appreciate you. I love what you've done with your hair. You're UNreplaceable. Thanks for listening you're always so kind to me. You've got a great laugh! Little things... You may not know it but you could completely change someones whole day and build up a little self esteem Words are powerful hurtful if used wrong and amazingly helpful kind and uplifting if used correctly

I challenge you this week to encourage someone you know. It's a great feeling for you and them.

You are unreplaceable friends and I love you! Go out there and make it a great week.

SHINE

Feeling Inspired

After a Blog talk in the nap room today I decided to give it a whirl

Finding the Shine

I've noticed that life has become so routine lately weeks are flying by in a whirl wind of noise! It's the same thing every day and this seems to make time fly by. I know that I don't want life to zoom past me I don't want everything to be so routine. Don't get me wrong I love my job I love my co workers I love my family and friends I know I am so truly blessed however having those things doesn't mean that life doesn't fall into a whirl wind.

I've found stepping back taking a deep breath helps. Also I like the little things it reminds me how great life is and helps me slow down. The smell of brewing coffee while I am filling bleach bottles in the morning amazing anticipating that first sip mmm wonderful my first five minutes of work have become a little get away knowing that first sip is coming. I love the quiet of the morning while I am filling bleach bottles and smelling coffee I am think of the day and what it has in store for me. Or hey I'll admit it I'll tell myself a joke and laugh or tell myself a story or get completely lost in the radio it's wonderful these ten minutes may speed by but they are no longer a chore they are an adventure! All with in the first ten minutes of my day!

It's enjoying every moment of the day as I type this blog my cats are curled up next to me the big one on the back of the chair his paw draped over resting on my shoulder the little one curled up so close her little snores she's so content they are both so peaceful and happy to be next to me. What a gift I've been given to have animals to have their unconditional love super sweet. It's just slowing down long enough to see them. Pick a flower smell it, get a hug from a child or a friend share a joke smile eat a chocolate bar and don't regret the calories eventually if you keep finding all the little things the big things will follow and they will shine more.

Keep smiling keep shining!

Hello 2010

2010 is a big year for everyone because it starts a new decade. I wanted to take a minute and review the old Decade. My life has changed so much. All for the better of course!

The Year turned 2000 and I was a Freshman in High school I celebrated that New Years Eve with my wonderful Aunt Desiree I still hold that memory near and dear to my heart. Over the next ten years I made the transition from childhood to adulthood. I started the decade with one group of friends and ended the decade with a different group of friends its funny how that works. I graduated High school welcomed my first niece into the world watched as my family grew and expanded with the birth of more nieces and nephews and cousins. I learned to start living on my own and doing things for myself. I look back and I am amazed at how much a life can change in simply ten years. I look forward to the next ten years to see where God leads me!